Yersinia felt like she was living in a daze. Since the attack by Gordon she was running on autopilot. Just going through the motions completely unaware of all that was going on around her. She was vaguely aware of the inquiries by her sister and knew that Orlando Bertino, her sister’s boyfriend had just joined the house and there was a memory of talking about school with her father. Little else sunk in. Bacillus had to remind her of her counseling appointment. She dreaded going but knew she had to.
She walked to campus with her head spinning. She was finding it increasingly difficult to keep her thoughts together. She arrived at the counselor’s office faster than she had expected. Her counselor was Professor Jessica Ebadi; Yersinia had taken Intro Psych with her. Yersinia gently rapped on the door. “Come in,” she heard a voice behind the door call out. Yersinia opened the door and walked inside.
“Have a seat,” Professor Ebadi said to her with a smile. Yersinia sat and watched Professor Ebadi flip through a file on her desk that Yersinia was certain was hers. Finally, Professor Ebadi spoke again, “Well Yersinia I see here that you have a popularity aspiration, you are majoring in Psychology and doing quite well with a 4.0.”
Yersinia smiled and nodded. She didn’t know how much she was or was not expected to say. But Professor Ebadi continued, “You are obviously doing quite well where you are. I have had you in class and Professor Jones also thinks very highly of your academic ability,” Yersinia felt herself grow a little warm at the mention of Xavier, “But the question is not how well you are doing but rather if you are happy where you are at. So the question I have for you is, are you happy?”
Those words struck Yersinia. Was she happy? Before the incident with Gordon she was very focus on becoming popular. But all of a sudden that didn’t seem to matter to her anymore. She felt much more internal and reserved. She looked up at Professor Ebadi, tears welling up in her eyes, “No, I’m not.” And suddenly Yersinia launched into the whole story about what had happened with Gordon and how she felt so alone and like she would never feel normal again. She didn’t care that Professor Ebadi was a colleague of Xavier and she might tell him what had happened. She just needed to get it all off her chest. Once she had she felt much better.
That sat in silence for a while but then Professor Ebadi spoke, “You will feel normal again. It will take some time and normal may be different but you will feel normal again. Trust me. You have gone through something very traumatic and it will take time for those wounds to heal. Be patient with them, they will heal. I think that given everything that has happened a change of aspiration would be good for you. Have you thought about that at all?”
“Yeah, I have and I think you are right. I was thinking maybe knowledge. That was my dad’s and it worked well for him.”
Professor Ebadi smiled, “I think knowledge would be a good change for you. Now, we will do that now and you can go home and think about what you want to do with your life and change majors if you’d like. And of course, Yersinia, everything that was said here stays here and if you ever need to talk, please don’t hesitate to contact me.”
“Thanks.” Yersinia left her appointment feeling lots better. She was relieved that she wasn’t going to tell Xavier. She didn’t know how he would react and she certainly didn’t know how she was going to tell him.
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